Summer

IT IS SUMMER! not that you would know it by the weather around here...but I am no longer telling 650 kids to finish their burger, eat your yogurt or your cheese, no you may not have seconds, yes you CAN get more ketchup (even if you just ate more ketchup than burger)!

It is just me and the boys (and Jeff when he gets home at night). I have never really looked forward to school being done....what will we do now without a structure? is what used to come to mind. Now?.........who cares? Let's go play.

We have things planned...soccer tournaments, family reunions, camping, more soccer, a wedding (we are kinda passed that stage in most friends life..one or two a summer), and hoping for sunshine. I am ready. I am hoping to start losing some of this "broken-leg-weight". I am ready... here we go.

haircut

I wasn't really driving down the road. We were waiting in the parking lot to pick up somebody... of course.

tho you need to tell me that I don't look like Farrah Fawcett, that's what I got from someone in the office today. I was kinda horrified! But I didn't let it do anything to my mood for the day. YAY!

Nearly here!

So, the way my last post went was totally typical for the day. I posted it. I ranted about the day I was having. I hit publish and lo and behold my computer said, "nope!" "see ya!" Phew! It's been nearly a month and it is better.

Yesterday I want into Regis Salon and said uncurl it and cut it off. I saw the movie Tangled a few weeks ago and when he cut off her hair in the end to save her I said, "that's it!" It's been on my mind for weeks. Did I dare? I haven't cut it above my shoulders in years. What to do with all the curls? As i cut it shorter it gets curlier. Can't have that. Not in my vision. So....they have a thing called anti-curl. Not quite as chemically hard on your hair as a relaxer and still leaves a bit of curl unlike straightening. And no where near as expensive. Can't imagine $600 to straighten it and it still grows in curly!

When she started cutting she even asked if I was breathing....nope, not really, but I will soon.

I LOVE IT!

I don't know how many times I said, "thank you" today to staff and students that said that they liked my hair. It is the beginning of the end of the school year and I wanted to kick it off right. Phew!

One of Those days! (Take two)

If that doesn't just sum it all up in a nutshell. Try to write it out the first time and I mess it up. Just one of those days. I am so tired of the rain. I am having one of those days where I would just like to curl up in a ball on the couch with my pillow and blankie and ignore the world. Not go to school. Not go to baseball. Not go to a meeting. Not answer the phone. Watch the 3 netflix movies that have been sitting there for 2 weeks. Not do anything.

One of those days where you feel like if you talk to anyone you might just break down crying. Not a really good feature in someone about to deal with 650 elementary kids.

I thought maybe it would help to write it. not really.

I am tired of the rain and today, I am tired of me.

one of THOSE days!

Disneyland

So we surprised the boys and took them to Disneyland for spring break! We had so much fun! It was a week full of not saying, "no". "Can we do this?" "yep" "Can we do this?" "Yep". The whole week was like that. We went on every ride, saw every show, did everything that the boys wanted. We rode every roller coaster, shot Zurg about a thousand times, ate every snack, waited for the submarine, turned corners in Indiana Jones, and just laughed. We got up early, and stayed up late. We never played video games, dad checked baseball scores for about 20 minutes one night, and we never watched regular tv. We got to hang out with friends who were down there at the same time. We had fun. Fun like we have not had in a long time. I can't actually count how many times Konley said, "Thank you". Even though he spent 2 days with a terrible cold, that caused him to lay down on the ground whenever we were waiting in line to nap. Poor boy!

The boys and I were waiting to go from Disneyland to CA Adventure. They have a great new sign out front.

I love when people will offer to take your picture so everyone can be in it! We were waiting for THunder Mountain Railroad. The first day we waited about 15 minutes. Then next day it was down and we thought we would wait for 15 minutes and see if the ride was fixed. We waited then we were discussing whether to stay or go and it opened! The next morning it was down again and we thought we wouldn't tempt fate twice and as we walked away they opened it! Two days in a row we were the 2nd family in line. It became our favorite...after CA Screamin' anyway!

Guilt

I wish that there was a pill for guilt. I think in a past life (not that i believe in past lives) I must have been a Catholic. Saying , "no" to anyone nearly sends me round the bend. But it all is getting to be too much.

I said no to PTA next year. I know that it is a good organization, yada yada. I started out great guns. Then one thing lead to another. Board members started dropping like flies. I procrastinated cuz I just wasn't feeling it.

Then I sent out a letter to my current board saying I just didn't have it in me to fight for another year. Our PTA is seriously struggling. Which makes it so much harder. But no one really had anything to say. Only one person even acknowledged that I wrote a letter. At least an acknowledgement would have been ok.

So why do I feel guilty for giving up something that no one really cares whether I am there or not?